“People are always worried about what's happening next. They often find it difficult to stand still, to occupy the now without worrying about the future. People are generally not satisfied with what they have; they are very concerned with what they are going to have.”
The Art of Racing in the Rain
So I am a little late on this one, but it is time for me to officially say goodbye to summer. A great one at that. This summer was pretty damn near perfect. Most of my free time spent on the St. Lawrence River with family and friends, which is one of my favorite things in the world to do.
So now that summer is over, and fall is practically done, I want to go back and do it all again. Do you ever feel like you are never living in the present? Always dreaming and thinking about the future? Never happy with where you are in life? I am so guilty of this. This entire time in PA school I have been wishing time away. I constantly dream about May 10th, 2014 and never stop to think about and appreciate where I am right now. All I have been obsessing about is graduating, moving to our next duty station, and living with Travis again. All good things mind you, but as soon as we get to where we are going, I know I am going to look back on my time spent in upstate New York and yearn for it. Because that is what I do. Why?
I will miss summer Sunday dinners with my family on the porch watching the sunset over the River. I will miss my grandfather (Mimp) making fun of me, "Don't you have enough pictures of the sunset by now?" I will miss playing golf with my family and congregating with everyone at the 19th hole for a refreshing beverage. I will miss time visiting with the new additions to the family, like my adorable godson. I will miss the girls from school who have become some of my closest friends and who have saved me numerous times. I will miss the changing of the seasons. I will miss the incredible fall foliage, hiking, canoeing, and enjoying all the Adirondacks have to offer. I will miss my college friends scattered throughout the New England area. I will even miss PA school. Well a little.
I need to slow down. I need to stop and appreciate all I have at this very moment. Because where I am in life is not as bad as I have been making it out to be. And I will never be here again. So the last 6 months of school are going to be different. I am not going to wish time away. Instead I am going to spend my time enjoying and remembering these precious moments with friends and family before they are gone.